Doesn't matter

Doesn’t matter if
Words fall short
It’s your personal matter

I can see the light of your eyes
The movement
The feel
The words
I feel that your eyes are dealing with words

How long our eyes will communicate
There is lots of dust around
How long
The time will wait,
which move without permission

So, it’s better to say
What you feel
What you need
What makes you happier?

Doesn’t matter if
You fall shorten with words

It’s the feel, which is true
Feel with touch
Feel with words
Feel the heart, feel the mind
Feel yourself what you feel

Because I can see the light of your eyes
Which make me to think about you every night
Doesn’t matter if
You don't think,
You don't feel
And you don't realized
Because its your personal matter....

Two Sides

Two sides of coin
One is your & second is mine
Head is mine
Tail is your

It’s an empty head
Right is mine, Left is your

Taken a coin
Looking at her eyes
Having a dream
And having a smile

One coin with two different lives
Nearer the distance
With that single coin
So, taken a coin
To make a choice
What is your and what is mine

It’s the game of two sides
Like two corners of a river
One is left and
Second one having a right

So taken a deep breath
To make a choice

Throw up the coin
Looking up at skies
Fraction of seconds
And eyes having a smile

Till now
Coin is standing on soul of earth
One life is waiting on earth
One having smiling
Coin is still standing in middle of two sides
What is your and what is mine

Never

Change the mood before saying correct words
As someone standing in front of that door

Afraid of time, which is going to turn into life
As everyone say life is beautiful so have your chance

Never to mention before the steps will cover the shadow
It’s never happen till now so what will happen next

Speak with open heart, and other makes it a joke
Joke of self-shadow, which is going to turn into race

Race of whom, who loose the game once
Its now your turn to win it with your own thoughts
When it’s going to happen
You will never going to know your own name

Questioning to Silence

Questioning to silence
Why it’s in place

While rubbing eyes
Realized the pain

Turned into new Colour
Remain silence for a moment

It’s not easy to get the things
Which lies on your end

It’s the crowded place
Covering the distance of your eyes

Move in that direction
So your thoughts will question to silence
Want you need and what is the direction

Sense

In Voice, inside eyes
Its real

Feel it with unspoken words
It’s the eyes and its real

Sense it within words
Feel it and its real
Without saying, sense the world

World of self
Sense of self
But eyes were different
Its real

No one know it
It’s the sense of own
Where you are owner
And you are looser

At last only “God knows”

Even I don’t know
What the branded soul I kept inside

The soul without any Logo identity
But have lot of marks

In sleeping mode its twist like a balloon
And enjoy the futurist flash

At last only “God knows”
What the soul he gave to me inside

Life is beautiful
When multiply with dream worlds

Who knows what the next twist you make
Might you win or me will lose

365 days of year, and work goes on
Over a period realize there is nothing
Like personal versa professional

All wonder lies in corner of your heart
Who knows, even I don’t know
When is the next laugh?
And when will heavy drops cover
The frozen eye drop

Life is beautiful, which make a twist
It twist every second, every minute over and over again
Who knows, even I don’t know, you know
Its Timeline only God knows

Eraser

One box
One Pencil, one Sharpener
And one Eraser

Whatever lines come up
Will make the pattern of image

Some I erase with Eraser
Which goes forever
Next time, same paper
But same box with same Pencil & Sharpener
And again small cute Eraser

By mistake I draw the lines
Which are not expectable
So it’s better to erase them

I try to erase it
But this time thought twice
To erase that line from white paper

Its white paper, white in colour
Bold enough to take all lines and colour

So from next time
I throw the Eraser
So whatever lines I draw
Will be final and better…

Fetching

Days gone, memories fade out
But thoughts are fetching out somewhere else

Color changed, people changed
But thoughts are on same face

Getting back to work
Saying good morning to pace
Everyday is a day
And every night is that face

Reading, writing and listening
Taken a life insurance too
Comprise a lot but again fetching out to go

Future went to tense
Believe it’s totally past tense
Said nothing but looking upward
So my angle don’t move to another chapter

Lots of happenings, lots of dramas
Where everybody talks and nobody listen
To whom it may concern

Listening to music type of ghazals
Planning to have a drink but everybody is there
Hiding and smiling so no one can figure out a tears
And again fetching all memories together
For the sake of that ghazal

Tried a lot to forget all
Nothing happen because mind is not false
Read lots of book taken lots of experience
But no one has fetch that experience
No one taken its serious
Because days are gone
When eyes smiles and make others cry

Now year changed and the beauties changed
And all past tense coming again
Present is good but lots of hurdles
So again fetching out toward future

Doing whatever the mind says
And going out somewhere to change that race
Race is nothing buts it’s a words of saying
Where everyone is moving with dreams

No one has taken a glimpse
Everyone is busy with own race
No one have time
No one say me is right
What to do, what not to do
All confusion is coming to fetch out a goal
Given up all things to fetch out the aim
Now its turn of time to fetch out name

In Shackle

Considering we all are social animal who eat, drink, sleep and work according to time frame because “Time is Relative” to us.

We are doing what we like to do but on same time we say No just because we unable to do what we actually want to do just because of time frame as lot of restriction, lot of consideration and lots of responsibilities are moving around us which are given by us only.

And in shackle sometime we unable to express ourselves correctly. Of course, everyone of us see dreams and keep it in open eyes without saying much is it, why so? And why we are so engaged with everything, which are static and still because we are social animal who have boundaries.

The world is a prison and we are the prisoners;
Dig a hole in the prison and let yourself out!
- by Rumi Daylight

So where are you now exactly!
Feel it, think it and say it loudly
Because the world of prisoners is waiting for you to dig a hole on that prison and let them also out to take some fresh air, fresh water in between given time frame…

Subject Line

Kindly change the subject line
I asked wisely
But it’s again the same
I shouted loudly but it happen again

Why can’t you understand?
I made the mistake
Why you are doing the same

That is why I m shouting and shouting
So that it help you to change

Change the color, change the dress
Change your mood
Change the name
Change all the things, which lies on your hand
Because I don’t like your name…

I want to see you fresh with all fresh flowers in your hand
I have taken a bath and wash my hand

I closed my eyes
So that you can change the SUBJECT LINE….
I prefer new thoughts, new ideas on one side

Change your present with your future kindly
It’s on you to change the world around you happily

I have given that subject line
Why you are stick to that
Kindly change it
It’s on you to change my soul for a while

Me was sweating too much
And you had taken a long breath

It’s the season of winter
Why you are taking a rest

Sometime I don’t say too much
And your silence gives the answer

It’s a month of December and you are seating idle
Oh shameful thoughts coming here
Come on darling is the month of December

You forget that day
When I have given you the flower (Of course, Red one)

So kindly change the Subject line, me is getting older

Why you are the same
Me is burning on a flame

It’s a hundred miles far away
And I m still walking and walking on a highway

Me is sweating too much
And you are having a beer
I have photo of yours inside my purse

You remembered I closed my eyes on that day
I still believe on you
And changed myself according to you
I changed the colour of my dress
Can’t you?

Me is working somewhere
Having a lots of work
Of course I had a cup of coffee
Do you remember once we have taken together?

Yes you have a different view
And I have taken your views

And I m still walking and talking
With all given belongings of yours…

Me is doing my work
What about you
You still have a different view
Kindly change that Subject line
I m still waiting for you >>>> to be continue

On Platform

Same platform, same place

Far away but taken
A break
Make up a move, with packed bag and polished a shoes

On same platform
Watching the pace
It’s a pace of silence
Which is making a move.

Come on!
It’s a platform
Only 5 minutes here to wait

They come & go
It’s a platform where you have to take BREAK with all given cakes!

Child within us…

How old tree but new leaf comes to feel him little younger every season. In same context we all are same…how old we are but the child in us remain somewhere in corner, which we forgotten long since as busy with professional timing and schedule…but this child have good point to capture in between time, whether its fun, emotion, love and relations..

Happen often when I usually behave or talk like a child which I don’t know but the person in front can capture the expression of mine might be everyday or in few days, and when I come to hear u r just like a child then I pass beautiful smile and say no no….i m not a child or behave like a kid to put in backside of my professional life.. nevermind if its make better or put hundred of smile on other face then what is the harm in making other happy as everyone love child…me too like and love the child too much…but when they grew up then screwed the happiness …is it…like we do when we grew up..screwed the happiness of parents, boss, friends and colleagues by touching their sentiments….

Just today one heart breaking or shocking things happen to me, when I was on my way to home in evening from office and the road is blank means in service lane of home, no one is there out on that straight road, its totally dark near by home and lights are off too and I was just walking on my own tune of thinking…and just sudden, just sudden one man in half shot, half ganzee (means top half white shirt) around 40-50 plus (age group) wearing big thick white circle glass on eyes and from that glass eyes look more bigger like when u in zooming mode of any text on paper. As its dark can’t seen him earlier and suddenly that old man come in front of me with big stone in his hand, jumping, bending to his foot and behaving like he will beat me or break my head with that big stone and at that point of time I totally lost what to do and scared with shockable-breakable mind can’t able to think where should I have to move whether right, left or straight toward him and then I managed my bravery attitude means my own age lifestyle and manage to shout on the person and said areyee uncle ji aapp kya kar rahee hooooooo marro gaya kya…and then that old person suddenly come in his position in front of eyes and look around me and said ohh yaar I was just beating dog which in now on your back and running. And that person is just like my neighbor I can say as he leave just near to my house around 100 houses distance..

Trust me after that I have taken long breath of relief ohh and start walking again, yaar what the lovely incident after long time happen to me. One more story in mukesh buffer to describe to friend and same thing I have done after 5 min called the friend of mine, told them the whole incident and what I have to listen at the end mukesh please grow up soon…ohh shit then I immediately changed the topic no no…I was just telling you in way of laughing but trust me I know what I happen to my lovely heart at that point of time…


Second small incident very short: On way to office and just waiting for the boss car and when its come in go inside and there is one person also in back seat and suddenly I look down said whoz mobile is this…but dear that was not mobile that was big and big Laptop and what I think and just spell out with tongue and come with mobile and that incident put smile on the face on car…nevermind its happens…


This is mine little story of child within me what’s on your end if you have any incident happen to you guys then lets share it and enjoy the path of experience on this platform so we can take some experience…

Alter ego

Own reflection where you can’t able to touch yourself in front of mirror. And this reflection is not saying lie to you…as you are looking for the answer every time within you. Its changed as per the your need.

Sometime it’s very easy to judge the road of others and make point on others before looking at yourself who the hell you are, what is your standard, where you stand in queue?

Mirror is same from year to year, not changing with the customer need. Mirror only give reflection as per you need and give the direction where you should have to move, Right or wrong, but this kid behaving Alter ego come and make the changed in regular routine. Every time tried to stop this ego but come and come without knocking door of own room, where she live.

Is this I? Yes sometime this question arise where the actual reality of your own world tell you Who Are You? And then you might be able to know about yourself little bit who are you. And then you can able to touch the reflection inside mirror, which is changing as per your own need, and you can handle the situation as per your own need when your alter ego is the part of your soul.

IF

If Red is in Green
And blue make your dream

Changed the dress
So mine robe going to ring

Drinking water, which
Don’t belong to place where I …
But drinking and drinking for the sake of life

On open sky looking to the kites
Taking long breath and making the smiles

It’s a distance of 1 km
Which is making our life…

Purpose

Everything is in Purpose, and ofcourse we are all here for some purpose. Some don't show their purpose what they need or what they like or what they want the only thing they show is that they are good and good enough to remain good for everone...
But the things are not exactly the same what you thing.

Recently after long time of gap means understand the form of observation in talking to one object what i thought about the object is totally different, as i can't able to know the purpose in first stage as i got the image of good and i make the picture good without thinking what the world think about that one....

But just sudden click just sudden click make understand the depth of all talk and purpose behind the all conservation....where only thing visible is called fun.

Yes FUN, only FUN which complete their purpose to one goal to another and then next time pass object they need to solve their purpose......might be in any form time pass, laugh, relations, friendship, love, sex or career..things go on...and this type of object are ready to do anything in front of u and u need not to beg anything from that...they are complete naked in front u and its on u how u have to used them on ur machine part..Naked here means (They are totally characterless they don't hv their own identity but want to manage their own ideantity and personality they are good and want to know everything without showing they don't know).

Things are totally in different shape in front of u and visible to u as what the purpose behind all healthy conservation we don't know hopefully we are late in line to capture that object why and why they did to complete their own funny purpose without thinking about the object who is fully faithful to them..

And this is called observation from mind not from heart...when u realise you were wrong in first stage and now second stage start of tackling the situation from ur end how good u be let see what u learn from past to tackle that object need now to implement...and discover the complete purpose by clicking one click and stop the thing in front of u where u r used wastefully and make ur precious time and good mind to thing on wrong side..

Now time to view the thing from different angle from different variety and before speak think what the object want what the purpose behind it now... as it totally marketing....how good you showcase yourself will solve the purpose..

PURPOSE END WITH NOTHING BUT FINISH UR PASSION AT THE END

Way back

Turn the cover and letter form the new world. Turning to back cover the brief summarize the words, its the life with fiction and non-fiction drama, nothing special but concern matter...with little drama

Stopped at Locked DOOR

Just stopped at locked door
Thought I have key with me

It’s the door, which is looking at me
And asked softly from me
Do you have key?

I looked up and down
Right to left
Now where I found the key

I said to door my dear I lost the key
Somewhere in the ocean for the time being

Door laughed at me loudly
And said what the hell and why
You are standing in front of me

I said to door my dear
I was just standing and thinking
Is there is any HOPE for me?

HOPE you are talking for hope
Just wait I think
I have master key with me?

I smiled and said ohh I see
Everyone is opening you like this?
I m not like this, I will open you
With my lost key just hope I will get that KEY…

Conservation between...two

Crossed the border, where _ start!

Life: Ohh nothing much! On my side.

Death: Really!
So, what your future plan then?

Life: Haven't decided yet waiting for right time and right place to move into…

Death: Oh I see, So, What type of place you are looking for?

Life: Yeah, seem like silent and peaceful… Do you have any ideas?where can I get this type of place!

Death: Okey before I will tell you I want to ask one question from you, May I ?

Life: Of course, why not I m ready for question to answer.

Death: Are you busy nowadays?

Life: Busy means busy on what context you are asking this… there arelots of thing where I am busy right now to be frank with you!

Death: So I take your words that you are busy, Okay To what extent?

Life: I can say 24 x 7 / 365

Death: So, you don't time for me.

Life: Time, buddy I have one thing with me, which is "TIME" as I bornand brought up with Time.

Death: Cool! like it…

Life: What about liking it! You are also the part of Time buddy!

Death: OH, I didn't know I thought time is waiting for me, as I comeTime Stop? Me is superior than time but for the time being I take yourpoint for granted.

Life: You better do!

Death: So you have a time for me is it?

Life: Well, can't say but yes I can manage it

Death: Great! You will manage, Well, hope you don't mind if I ask fromyou that would u like to go for Date with me (means for Coffee or tea)

Life: Really, you want to go with me but dude I would like to go for drink, as I told you earlier I m looking for peace after chilling outmy mind.

Death: Mentioned not, we can go for drink? But where we can, as I mnew to this place

Life: Ahhhhhhh, Golden dragon is okay its good place to go at evening,and then we will going to meet tomorrow is it fine!

Death: If you think its good then its obviously good, yes we will meettomorrow catch you at 6 in evening

Life: Just for second, as we are going on date which dress you preferI will wear…

Death: Oh, I appreciate your feeling my permission you need andpreference too..I like black and white, now its on you what you wantto wear, okay go for Black if I don't like it then I will let you know.

Tomorrow at 6: pm > Inside Golden dragon

Death: So, Life you are with me right now how are you feeling? I wantto hear from your voice.

Life: Ah what I say dear, its itsssssss lovely I can't express myselfright now but it's really great while with you right now…

Death: Oh my pleasure! Hope you are not falling in love with me, well I said just because I have seen in your eyes something.

Life: Yummi, Yummi, you taste is really good and you can read the eyesgreat. My answer to your question is Yes, me is falling somehow whichyou called love, Well right now with you don't know about future...

Death: So, here to point, where would like to now HEAVEN or HELL?

Life: Means? I didn't get you, what are you talking!

Death: You are dead. On Next Date I m going to tell you Why I did withyou this. Right now you can go in Heaven as you have spend good momentwith me?

NEXT DATE IN HEAVEN

Life: You bullshit why you did so with me I told you I love you so whyyou have done with me, Why So?

Death: Dear, as you told me you want peace and you said you love me soI thought its better that I will marry with you and give you all peaceand pleasure whether it will be heaven or hell. On your own words I mtaking you because its your mistake that you DATED with me and spendyour precious time with me so there is no point wasting the time andgo to another door, that is why I took you with me, well family planning we will do after some gap.

Life: Ohhh my time, my moments my relation, my love, my work, my tension is all you have to take care of it. Can you naa!

Death: Yes sure, it's my duty I will!

At last every conservation have an END, whether positive or negative, whether
lively or deadly, whether happy or bad but its should have end as everything
which begin have END so next conservation can start…means LIFE

THE END

Remote Control

One man succeeds in everything, and so loses all. Another meets with nothing but crosses and disappointment and thereby gain more than all the world is worth

-Willam Law

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Everything here is under control from birth till death. As birth place light in advance and death place their shadow in advance.

Birth put some happiness and joy in life and as far death is concern nobody yet prepared for it or know in advance…

And to whom we trust who don’t trust us or to whom we give our trust that again don’t trust us. So all worries of life from birth to death are controllable from somehow invisible remote control which we are fear of.

Why we should worry about our life. Let God have to worry about all our worrisome mind and life.

As he is controlling from that remote control is it!

He is watching the TV and viewing the different movies of every character in this earth somehow we called it “Beautiful LIFE”

We are just like a pet for him in his garden of heaven or hell and he is taking care of every single moment of ours…

He has given a path of right and wrong in our way, whatever we choose is on us.

And this is only trust or you can call it Confidence in us to choose our road with our own. Total Freedom!

Free just free mind he has given us to think but at the end this mind is not free at all from all worries in mind. Who is using it in right ways that are somehow successful in life, which has used it in right way this is biggest thing means Control form of mind. Again saying throw it as it is the duty of God to think over it not we means Worry in mind, because God is controlling it from central place and we are moving it in different way.
As God is one part of our trust and confidence, which is totally controllable with our mind and this remote control is our mind with every channel of life.

Into inside & multiple outside

Putting every plus sign into minus is the art of removing every blank space in between plus and minus

And after looking at insight, outside seem to be lighter and making inside plus into isolation…and it’s the phase where the things are coming in shape of observation and observer is to be observed at every point.

If looking from 360 degree view every single object is on 90 degree with their own name tags that is why the things goes into inside and world is multiple of your thought from outside…

On Boat

Bright morning, sunlight fell
Fading out, Fading out, all my dreams

Peeking at me behind the curtains
when nobody around me!

I smiled and blinked my eyes
recalling what happen to me!

Who is blind?
Me or You
Without understanding the
world within me!

That buring eyes
with beautiful smiles
Enlivened my dream all night

I wake up & smiled
And realised oh SHIT!
I was alone on boat whole night...

Love

Love is fear
Fear of jealousy and attachment in your mind

It’s a beauty of mind,
Where wastage of energy is on a point

It’s suffering what people call
What is love! Have you ever asked?

Yes! It’s unspeakable
To understand your mind, as love is always blind

And its come just in time,
Which mould this word into your mind

This make you laugh and cry
And its totally fear with tear in your eyes…

It’s a desire, it’s a passion
Whatever you take, but at last it’s a color of pain somewhere in your life!

Truth

Its remain in Dark
When light passes from heart

That window is open
Which is open for all...

Its amid in two nights
Which one is truth, which one is lie,

No matter what plan you make
No matter what other say

As truth always be hidden in dark
And this is the beauty of one heart

To whom we bewail up to..
Its we, he, she and they...

And this is Yantra, Tantra and Mantra of one..truth toward heart

Just Walk

Just walk and walk
Time will put inches in your path

Days gone when steps were fast
Fast from thoughts and fast!

Every single thought have reflected mirror
Which will put hundred questions in your path

Someone is looking at you from distance
Which might reflect your heart
Open your eyes and look into your heart
Someone is waiting for you from so far

Break that silence
As your shadow is coming in my path

Oh my God! What path it is?
God replied it is life unbroken path

So walk and walk time will put inches in your heart
Just walk and walk
One day you will learn lesson from your past…

The End 2006

“Everything that has a beginning have an end” but time with year and life with No Profit & Lose will go on but at last you have to maintain Balance sheet for every year is it!

Excuse me Madam and My Dear Sir, I want to say something to you just give me one chance only one. Small Speech here for you:

Good morning till Good night My Dear lovely Ladies and Gentlemen, Do you know who is coming nearby you next year, any guess, okey don’t waste time, I tell you None other than anyone Mr. James – me, your and our James Bond ohhh again in doubt dear “J” taken from January and “07” from 2007 very simple we play the role of Bond in coming year. Don’t you?

Well, as usual I am in full mood of welcoming 2007 in my own tradition style and style is live with present natural attitude with Mantra of 07 (James Bond is nearby you).

Just hold for a moment its time to recall 5 ups and 5 downs of 2006 to maintain the dairy in mind with this write up forever! Me is trying why not you because this 06 has hold us in every house-hold to office-hold from every friend-hold to love-hold and from every food-hold to shit-hold…to make us overall busy…

Here are following 5 ups and downs:

5 ups

Experience: I would like to call 2006 for me is the “Well-driven Party year” with all fun and tuning with rhyme of Guitar. Learnt a lot from surroundings as nearby all intelligent people. And this year is totally home run to office fun and good food, laugher channel etc.
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Friendship/Love/Relation: With moving season built good relations with past, present and present continuous, some come with sudden click and some are waiting for me to come! Overall meet 10 new face this year and 15 old ones. Got 3 crash of love down the line…
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Curriculum Activities: Specialty of this year is that when I run half marathon in Delhi (No-Stop 6km) good experience and second is played lot of Table tennis after long time. Last but not the least I have written good bundle blogs & poems for my feeling and imagination and sung lot of song with keeping in mind to learn atleast half song for the year…
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Appreciation, Understanding and polishing: This year I received good appreciation means good word from people around me about my work which help to me do better and this year I understand the mean of word Understanding, and polished my skills.
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Latest update: After purchasing new mobile me feel a little bit rich this year and after reading some book me feel good to gain some knowledge and I rich the knowledge this year my sing song of my heart.

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5 downs
Friendship Experience: Lose 5 bloody good friends in starting month of 06 which I can’t able to say whether its bad or good, but obvious its on down side.
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No Extra Income: Not earned little peanuts from outside means from freelancing…busy schedule keep me busy in putting my efforts toward them…
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Lost belongings: This year I lost my phone dairy and my dear lovely 1100 Nokia mobile which broken my heart for 2-3 days.
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Still in finding mode: Not meet right person at right time this year let see next year meet Mrs. Bond, as family has put a request appeal on my freedom panel for coming year…
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My carelessness: Not able to purchase car this year, can’t able to say what I feel for my illusions. Can’t able to help other properly this year and can’t able to devoted time on social networking this year……….as frozen up toward the duty of home to office………
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At last before ending the theme of The End 2006, I would like to say “Thank You” to every one for being with me and make me feel comfortable with running time without any panic attack or heart attack…. Down head salute to 2006…. and steps are ready for 2007 (Year of James Bond)

From myself

One question I ask from myself everyday
Two reply I get from myself everyday

Which one is right, which one is wrong?
Again go in dilemma of asking same question to myself everyday

Day pass, time pass
But that question answer remain pending to myself everyday

In passion of taking accurate reply
Move toward the neighbor door.

They listen it, they discuss it
But that question makes them laugh on me everyday

Then try to pass that question
From where it arrive

And after sometime
Answer came in form of “No” one day

“No” in form of answer
Again put 100 questions to myself everyday

Who is right, what was wrong that day

Because me is thinking, they are thinking everyday

And that question remains unsolved everyday.

Day pass, time pass but that question
Is disturbing me everyday

Waiting for next season so that waves
Change the flow of that question to myself everyday…